Saying Sorry

im sorry that you noticed.
im sorry that you cared.
im sorry that i cant hold on.
when im so very scared.

im sorry that you love me.
im sorry that youre here.
im sorry that i left you .
when all i knew was fear.

im sorry that im crying .
im sorry i cant stop.
im sorry for believing.
i could rise to the top.

so perfect and protected.
thats what they all see.
but they cant see what my minds like.
because they arent me.

im sorry for the bleeding.
im sorry that it stained.
im sorry it washed off my hands.
the first time that it rained.

im sorry that it happened.
im sorry you were there.
im sorry that you had to see.
but this wasnt fair.

i had to turn the tables.
i had to make you see.
im sorry that you never knew.
there was more to me.

im sorry you cant see it.
im sorry it was true.
im sorry that i told the truth.
when i said i loved you.